Hungry for Presence
An update on my life
Medium sent me a notice that if I don’t have 100 subscribers by March I’ll lose my partner status, which I’ve been holding on to in anticipation of the day I am finally ready to tell my story. Which I’m not quite yet, but I figure if I start writing something, anything, I can perhaps get a few more followers and maintain my partner status until then. Or not. Since I only have 4 days left. Oh well, at least it got me off my ass.
An update on the past two years…
I was alone then I wasn’t, the blog was up and then it wasn’t, I was well and then I wasn’t, my divorce settlement was resolved and then it wasn’t, and my brand new home is still falling apart while the lawsuit with the builders trudges on. So it goes.
From lovers to lawyers, I’ve lost close to a hundred thousand dollars to people who never gave me any actual reason to trust them. I voluntarily lived as a hermit for 6 months, shunning all but the most necessary human contact while figuring out WTF was wrong with me. I then cautiously entered into a relationship with an atheistic Aspie who, after a year of sharing my spiritual journey, is beginning to embrace crystals, astrology, and energy work as something other than magical thinking.
Committed as I am to demand what I deserve and desire, I have held him accountable to our Spiritual Growth Contract, several times trying to break up with him when his promises failed to manifest through actionable daily steps. At each threat of relationship annihilation he has taken ownership, done his work, and ultimately demonstrated that he is all in on this Soul Partner business. So I finally have what I’ve been hunting for since I left the marriage I thought would last forever. Now my story begins anew.
Like most of us since the pandemic began, I’ve been struggling to stay afloat, fighting for air and wondering if I will ever wash up on dry land and what the hell that land, that life, might look like. As the near future comes into focus it looks surprisingly like the original vision I had back in 2017. More on this later.
For the past few years I’ve been manifesting a planning system which satisfies my need for organization, structure, and forward momentum while simultaneously giving my Higher Self total freedom to choreograph the seconds, minutes and hours of my days. I call this system Present Moment Living and Planning, and I know it works because it has saved my ass more than once over the past year.
So if you, like me, yearn to carry the hard-won Present Moment Consciousness you developed during quarantine into the life you are rebuilding now, stick around. This isn’t another one-size-fits-all planning system. Present Moment Living and Planning (PML&P) is a blueprint for building your own plan, tailored to your life, your goals, your lifestyle, your energy patterns, and your spiritual inclination. I can’t wait to share it with you!
